Upright Infinity

The many stages of priming and sanding. I’m going to do this description a little differently: I’ll list the stages I went through, and then mark at which stage a picture was taken.

  • Worbla base completed (Photo 1)
  • Primer 1 (Photo 2)
  • Primer 2
  • Primer 3
  • Primer 4
  • Primer 5
  • Rough sanding (with dremel) (Photo 3)
  • Primer 6 (Photo 4)
  • Polyfill 1
  • Light sanding
  • Primer 7
  • Primer 8
  • Primer 9
  • Primer 10
  • Primer 11
  • Primer 12
  • Sanding…so much sanding…more sanding (Photo 5
  • Polyfill 2
  • Sanding
  • Polyfill 3
  • Sanding (Photo 6)

It is entirely possible that you can’t actually see the difference between Photos 5 and 6. So I took extreme close ups:

Photo 7: See all those little pits? Those all had to go.

Photo 8: There are a few tiny scratches from the sandpaper, but they are much shallower than the pits, and most of the surface looks nice and smooth like in the upper left corner of this pic.

And now I think the back piece is done, save for attachements and painting. \o/  There are still some wee scratches from the sandpaper and similar slightly rough spots, but when I have to tilt the piece so that the light catches it just right to see them, and this before painting, I think I’m okay.

Inevitable, C/C PG-13, SNIPPET (SO MUCH FLUFF)


There’s a day when Clint realizes it’s inevitable. It’s not a huge revelation. It’s not momentous. It’s gentle, like waves on a beach slowly, irrevocably gaining ground. There’s a smile that Phil gives him that fills Clint with light. He can’t help but smile back and Phil’s face goes bright with happiness.

It’s a good smile.

They pack up together. They head out together. They stand in the elevator and talk like normal, because it is normal. It’s all so normal. No one looks at them funny as they walk out of the double doors of their stop and into the main SHIELD lobby. No one remarks on how their feet clap in time against the shiny marble foyer.

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This weekend I have been sanding and sanding the back piece. It’s sooooo close. But I need that thing smooth like glass, and there are still little pits in it because of the unevenness of the worbla. Getting there, though.

Anyway, I decided to take a break from the sanding to do the chest piece. In order to avoid air bubbles (*shakes fist at sky*) I sealed, trimmed, and shaped both halves in parallel, which required working damn fast. It worked beautifully, except for how I did one piece inside out (so that the seam from the sealing showed around the edges). *facepalm* It’s nothing that can’t be fixed with trimming and a bit of polyfill, but that’s work I could have avoided. Ah, well. Working fast has it’s downsides, and this is still and easier fix than fucking air bubbles.

Anyway! Ultimately I’m VERY happy with how this turned out. Placement in the photos is slightly off, just because I only have so many hands and friction and duct tape aren’t precise placeholders. *g*

Star-Lord cosplay update!

This weekend I made it my goal to get the entire back piece covered in worbla and shaped. I succeeded! Here are the results, with notes:

Photos 1 & 2: Terrible selfies at unflattering angles, but look how nicely that back piece fits my shoulderblades! My shoulderblades stick out pretty far, so this is a non-trivial exercise.

Photos 3 & 4: The back and front, respectively, of the back piece I am wearing in 1 & 2. The seams at the top of the shoulders are intentional and will be left in. The wobbly cross shaped seam in the middle of the back will be covered up or smoothed out. And I just realized that I took photo 4 before I snipped off the extra length on the right inside shoulder piece. Just pretend that isn’t there…

Photo 5: The jetpack type piece that goes on top of the back pieces in the other photos. Wait, you say, this means that the nice fitting to your shoulderblades will be covered up! So why do it? Two reasons: (1) It will be more comfortable, and (2) I totally forgot it would be covered up. Oops?  But hey, good practice. Also, admire the jetpack piece in this photo, because it’s about to get mostly destroyed.

Photo 6: After re-heating the jetpack piece, I got it pretty well positioned on the back piece…at which point all the surface started caving in, since it’s hollow. D:  Maybe I should have done it in separate pieces and just heated the edges so that wouldn’t happen, but let me tell you, the geometry and bends were hard enough to figure out. I’m not sure I could have done it that way. Anyway, with the assistance of gravity (I heated it up until it was really wobbly and then turned it upside down — yay gravity!) I got the big center area to flatten out. But the left side and the middle of the bottom were so saggy that in the end I decided it would be less trouble over all to just cut a worbla patch and stick it over top. So that’s what I did. You will notice at least one giant air bubble. There are more, believe me. Air bubbles! *shakes fist at sky*  The “poke it with a pin and smooth it out” trick does not work when there is open space below where you would be pressing to smooth and you don’t want to cave in your shape…

Future work (in progress): After reaching the stage you see in Photo #6, I realized that the air bubbles and seams and a couple of other things would almost certainly have me attacking the back piece with the heat gun again in the future. This would be bad, because in it’s current state it was pretty good, nothing that couldn’t be fixed with polyfill and sanding. But I knew, I knew I would try and fix it with the heat gun. So to head myself off at the pass, I started priming it. Normally I would wait until the rest of the armor was done in case adjustments were needed, but I figured that was unlikely, and I had to stop myself from ruining it. So it is currently 4 layers of gesso (and one session with the polyfill) into priming. More photos forthcoming when I finish all the priming and sanding. 

Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Clint Barton/Phil Coulson
Characters: Clint Barton, Phil Coulson
Additional Tags: Fluff

Phil has a mysterious laundry fairy.

~~~ I felt like it had been ages since I posted something, so here, have random fluff!

Hi everyone.  I’m going to be unfollowing the few people I currently follow for the forseeable future. I’m in a pretty fragile emotional state right now, and pretty much everything I see on tumblr is making it worse.

There will be a tiny handful of exceptions for blogs that stick very strictly to a theme, but I will be unfollowing even the folks I know in real life.

Just an FYI so that you know it isn’t personal!


How to make your very own I Don’t Suck file:

It can be general or specific—A lot of my clients make general files with notes from loved ones or former students/clients/bosses of theirs or other supports. Or magazine clippings that remind them of goals or qualities they have. I am currently making one that is therapy related as a way to transition from my most recent job and prepare for my move abroad. It has notes from clients, supervisees and evaluations.

What you need: It can be as low maintenance as a file folder stuffed with notes or as high maintenance as a well-crafted scrapbook. What’s important is that you have a place to go when you need a pick-me-up.

You can gather things to build it—don’t have what you’re looking for? Start gathering!

  • If you have a friend or family member you trust to be supportive of you, see if they’d be willing to write you a note about what they like about you.
  • Next time you’re looking at a magazine or reading a blog and see something that resonates with you—save it for your file. Truth resonates, and you can’t recognize something that you don’t have, so if there is something you read or see that you admire and relate to, there’s something of you that’s in it.
  • Write yourself some affirmations when you’re feeling good—make your own or use song lyrics or quotes.

-latest After Trauma post

I don’t know why I even try to be in fandom anymore. All I end up doing these days is ruining other people’s fun and then feeling like an awful person.

anyone got a fandom I could join?

Seriously, I am starving for fic and there’s just…nothing to read in C/C fandom. It’s all WIPs, or half thought out prompt fic, or two-lines-in-another-pairing fic, or unhappy/bittersweet broken relationship.

Teen Wolf fandom is a giant pile of wank I’m not interested in subjecting myself to. Supernatural is a giant pile of depression that I don’t have the emotional strength for. Every time I look at Pacific Rim I get a face full of body horror. I wish I could do GotG, but there’s no slash pairing in that one. (Rocket/Groot does not count. The smut is important to me, and they do not have the bodies for my smut of choice.) Sherlock fandom is not my cup of tea. (Okay, the rare pairings are, but I’m looking for more fic, not less.)

And I don’t even know how to find any up and coming fandoms.


Can you re-enact your reaction to hearing you had been cast on a marvel movie?